Little moments

I feel like all the little moments in the life as a mother as what make it all worth it! Everyday Noah does something new that makes me just sit back and smile. They are most always small things that to other people would go completely unnoticed and not very important or significant but to me they are the moments that make it all worth it because I am able to sit back and for the first time in my life watch a little mind grow and develop right before my eyes. I feel like if someone asked me I would describe Noah as my true pride and joy because I made him, I grew him, I brought him to this world and I get to spend every moment of every day helping him become the wonderful boy he is becoming! I know one day he will have a mind of his own to think for himself but I am the one person who is helping him get there and I only hope I can so the very best job so I will look back and have no regrets. 

Here are a few little moments lately that make me smile!

My little man has a new love for Lego. When we were in the hospital they have us a little dollar store set of Lego and I never knew how much he would love them! He plays with them everywhere. I always bring a few pieces of Lego with me. But this particular day he kept building different towers, clap and smile at me, destroy it and then start all over again. 

Noah has a new found live for shoes. Specially big shoes that arn't his. Pretty much every day you will find him in our front closet taking out one pair at a time and trying to walk around the house in them, high heels and all. At the end of the day when I go to pick up the toys around the house I usually have to put away a bunch if shoes as well haha. 

My little monkey! If there is something that is off the ground he will usually find a way to master it and climb it somehow. Like this new printer box Kyle just brought home the other day. Noah pushed the computer chair over to it, climbed the chair and then jumped onto the box. His mind just amazes me everyday how smart he is becoming. 

This boy loves his papa so much! It doesn't matter what they are doing as long as papa is involved he will usually be interested. Like the other day I was trying to get Noah to come somewhere and as soon as I said Noah come see papa he came running instantly! I guess my dad eventually got his boys, he just had to wait till his grandchildren were born. 

But this is the quite moment that made me think to write this post this morning. Nothing big or real significant but to me as a mother it was big. He wanted to play with his play table but I guess he was tired of standing so he decided to go find his chair on the other side of the room to bring it over. The only problem was there was a pillow in the way where his chair needed to go so instead of getting frustrated and angry he just put his chair down, moved the pillow and then put his chair where he wanted it to go. His little mind is growing everyday and I love watching happen right before my eyes. He was able to solve the problem all by himself and I was proud! 

My sick little boy.....again!

So Noah came down with another bad case of bronchiolitis and we ended up in the hospital last night. Not fun at all but I am glad we made the choice to come in because he defiantly needed it. But I also learned so much about what is happening to him from the doctors this time. So in a way I am glad it happened so close to the last time because this seems like it is going to be a problem for Noah that we need to really watch for quite some time. So I am glad to understand it more and since then we have really been looked after well. Like my doctor has wanted to see me a few times since and she set us up with a respiratory therapist so all of our bases are covered. Anyways we have learned that when Noah come in contact with just a common virus if he reacts to it bad enough he develops a case of bronchiolitis which you could describe it as a very extreme asthma attack but very server in babies. This results in him becoming very listless and not very responsive due to him not being able to breath properly on his own. The doctors told us that another baby could come in contact with the same cold virus as Noah and all they could get it a cold or an ear infection where for Noah it will attack him with respiratory problems because that is just what he is susceptible to. It has been pretty scary at times having to watch my son struggle to great but I feel sade to say we have been in good care and have good plans to make things hopefully easier to prevent these type of problem in his future!! It is just so hard to tell when he is starting to have this probelm because it is just so sudden and literally within a few hours and the doctors have told me that once this starts happening to him there is nothing I can do at home we just have to come to the hospital. The doctor explained it to us in more detail saying that his bronchi tubes are swelling inward and so he can breath air in but can't push it out so eventually his lungs would just get so full there would be no more room for air to breath in and that is where the danger part comes in. So we have 2 different puffers we have at home, one a steriod that is supposed to keep a constant level on medication in his body to keep any minor inflmation down and the other is just his rescue drug that helps relax his muscles so we are hoping with those we can prevent any more of these events for the rest of the winter!!
This picture below Noah right now as I am writing this. After another long night in the hospital we are just waiting to be able to go home. Luckily we were able to get him to have a little nap this afternoon here because he is clearly exhausted!! My poor boy!! I only pray we won't have to come back here soon!! I never knew how hard it would be to watch your kids struggle and there is nothing you can do to help take the pain away. Mommy loves you Noah!!

Our New Baby!! #2

So yesterday was a very exciting day for me because I had an ultrasound which meant Kyle and I got to see our new little one!! It is so crazy for me to think this is happening because it seems to be going so quickly!! It must be because I have Noah to take up all my attention the only time I think about being pregnant is when I get dressed in the morning or look in a mirror haha! But yesterday was the day for us to find out what the gender was or not and Kyle said it was up to me this time but I decided to keep it a surprise! I actually surprised myself that I didn't find out because I always said I would with baby #2 but I didn't realize how much I would have loved the anticipation in the end with Noah. It was so great!! With Noah it bugged me a lot though like when it came to painting the room and buying stuff and picking out the bedding but in the end I realized none of that really mattered. I painted Noahs room fun anyways and he never slept in his crib till he was almost 6 months old it didn't matter if the crib wasn't decorated! I am going to go on a bit of a buying spree for this baby and just buy them on different reciepts and just have Kyle return the clothes for whatever we don't have so really in my mind what else would I do? Haha but of course it would be fun to no but I really want the surprise again! I am not as nervous as I was leading up the labour as I was with Noah but I know myself and I know I will be once it gets closer so I want that extra incentive to push through the hard stuff! Anyways my ultrasound was fun because the ultrasound tech was actually a friend of mine so she gave us a really great exam! Way longer and way more detailed than anyone with Noah! I got to see everything. It was very exciting!! But its crazy to think she knows the gender of my baby haha!
Well here our all the pictures from yesterday!! This is the newest member of our family!! Only 137 more days to go and hopefully I will be holding my new little bundle! Sometime between May 31st and June 2nd is when he or she is supposed to arrive.

My friend was trying to take a 3D picture but it is kind of hard because Cranbrook doesn't have the proper equipment so you have to free hand the pictures. Anyways this is a picture she got. If you look closely you can just see the baby's face and it is looking to the right. The nose is right at the end of the white stick. The long thing infront of the face is the umbilical cord. I love this picture! 

Our Mexican Christmas!

So even with our rough start our trip was not ruined and we made it mexico with no problems! We arrived on the 21st of December and Mindy & Brian met us there the day after we arrived. Noahs initial recation to everything was pure excitment until he got to the ocean and he turned and ran as fast as he could haha. He was pretty scared of the ocean almost the whole 2 weeks we were there. He kind of warmed up to it by the time we left but when I say warmed up I mean he was ok with the sand but if the water came to close he was very quick to run and scream haha! The first day on the beach I had to hold Noah on my lap for probably over a half hour until he was ok to sit beside me on the sand. But despite that he absolutely loved the pool! We brought some water wings with us and by the second day in the pool he understood how to balance himself with them and he wanted to swim all by himself! It was very exciting to see his face as he was discovering this new exciting thing! We were in the pool at least once a day, sometimes twice! Noah got so good in the water he could jump in all by himself, go completely under and pop back up and just start swimming all with a smile on his face!! He absolutley loved doing that! Even though we were very far away from home Christmas morning was still great! Noah is a little small to understand things yet but Sanat brought him this big set of 6 different kind of John Deer tractors and he loved them! So even though he didn't understand what was going on it was fun to watch him smile with his new toys. As long as I have my family with me I am fine to be anywhere for Christmas! Christmas day we had a lady cook us a big turkey dinner and we invited the Robertson's over and my Aunt Tammy and Uncle Darrell and all my cousins were in mexico to so we still had a really fun get together with family and friends! Overall the trip was amazing! We had record high tempertures for December which was wonderful! I think I wore a light jacket one evening but I was the only one. We went out to a bunch of our favourite restaurants of course such as Taco Loco! I am pretty sure Kyle and the guys went there like 6 times! They love it! My mom took us to the this new little restauarant on the beach that was so secluded but it was great because the tables were in the sand so the kids just played the whole time! Kyle and I went down town twice and did some typical market shopping. We bought Noah and his 2 baby cousins at home matching hooded ponchos! They are were cute! But the second night we were down there we went for dinner at this sqaure and there was a live band playing songs for hours! It was so much fun. The kids danced the whole time! Kyle and I went for Linny, Ty & Jordan to go see the cliff divers one day. Just an excuse to get out. But probably my favourite thing we did was go the MazAuga!! It is a sweet waterpark in Mazatlan that is so cheep and the best part is there was so many rides and hardly any people and there are no rules haha so you can pretty much do whatever you want!! We got there when it first opened at 10 and we pretty much stayed all day! It was such a great day!! They have a great kids water park so even the kids had a great time!!

But while we were gone our family had a few first's that I wanted to write about:

> As I have already said Noah learned how to swim!! He will be 18 Months old on January 8th and I feel he is growing up way to fast!! But I love to see his big smile when he starts swimming. He is always so proud of himself!!

> I felt our new baby move for the first time in my belly! I think I have felt it a few times before but wasn't sure but I know I can feel it now. It is unmistakable!

> Noah learned how to say "no" by shaking his head. It is really nice because it is one more thing he can do to show me how he is feeling. But if you go up to him and just start saying "no no no no..." he will laugh and just start shaking his head no haha!

> Noah made his first animal sound. If I ever try and teach him animals or try to get him to copy me he just laughs or smiles but while we were in Mexico he really had a love for birds and being in the pent house you saw them fly by out on the deck all the time so we would always ask Noah where the birds were when he was upset as a distraction. Well one day I told him to call the birds and say "Tweet Tweet" and he copied me and said "Teet Teet!" It was so cute!!

> So Kyle taught Noah how to give high fives a while ago but he would only give them to kyle but while we were gone he started giving them to me and now he does it all the time!!

> Oh and I almost forgot not only did I feel our new little baby move my stomach has officially popped! I definatly look pregnant now which is exciting!

Our sick little boy :(

So this christmas was a little different for our family. We decided to spend it in Mazatlan, Mexico! Counting down to the day we left was very exciting because we all couldn't wait to enjoy some nice warm weather but right before we left Noah decided to take a turn for the worst and we ended up spending a night in the hospital! At one point we weren't even sure if we would be going to Mexico with everyone but int the end all we wanted was for our little boy to get better. It all came on very quickly. He seemed normal the days leading up to everything, had a bit of a runny nose but nothing out of the ordinary. But then on Wednesday I had to come in early for a Midwife appointment and the whole drive to town he was very unhappy and cried and such the whole way. I left Noah with my mom and I wasnt gone very long, maybe an hour, but by the time I was done Noah had become very upset and not well. I went on with my day with my mom, let him have a nap there thinking he would be happier when he woke up but that didn't happen. It finally got to a point I got a little worried because his breathing started to get very weasey and forced that I tried to get into any doctor I could but had no luck. Finally at the end of the work day I finally got into one at 4:30 and they thoguht he possibly was developing croup which I wasn't completely sure if that was the case but I thought it was worth a shot. Anyways I went straight to the pharmacy to get the medicine and ended up waiting almost an hour and a half which was HORRIBLE!! If I knew it was going to be that long I would have left and came back because Noah was so unhappy. I was the one in the store with the screaming kid! But at first they just told me it would be no more than 30 minutes and they would push him to the front of the line. But they just kept coming out and saying a little bit longer. Well finally after the longest wait ever they said it was ready but when they were giving it to me they said, "Well we have this other medication that is the same thing but instead of a huge bottle it is just a small 5ml dose. Would you like that?" Of course I said yes because Noah had croupe about a month ago and giving him this medicine is torture for the both of us. But then he told me it would be another half hour and just broke down in tears. I was so embarrased but I couldn't help myself. It was a very hard day and all I wanted to do was go home and help my little boy! Anyways I oventually got home around 7:00 and kyle was up at his parents house some I went straight up there. We weren't even there for 20 minutes and Noah started throwing up everywhere and then went completely limp and white. His breathing was getting worse as the day went but by this time it was almost nothing and I got very nervous so we ran home, got some clothes and such and went straight back into town. Luckily we did because we ended up spending the night in the hospital. Your oxygen level is supposed to be around 100 normally and the highest Noah could ever get without help was around 80 which was scary. You could see it on the outside of his throut and chest him struggling to breath. And he didn't even squirm when they had to poke and check him or even when we would put the mask on his face. He was no very responsive it was very sad. Anyways they deiagnosed him with having bronchitis which I guess it pretty serious in babies so we were lucky that we caught it right away otherwise there woud have been no way we could have taken him to Mexico. He made an amazing recovery we were discharged the next afternoon. They gave us a puffer with a mask we had to give him every 4 hours even during the night and we did that for almost our whole trip.

Here we go again...Baby #2!!

Well the news is out...we are having another baby joining our family. I am due May 31st and we are very excited! It was a bit of a surprise because it only took one month which I did not expect but it was a wonderful surprise! I still have to remind myself a lot that this is happening because I don't have any crazy symptoms that remind me every day and I am also busy with Noah still. That is another crazy thing for me to think about....I already have a baby. At least to me Noah is my baby but I know as soon as this new baby arrives he will look so big over night! That part is kind of sad but I can only imagine how close my 2 babies will be and that makes me excited. I am also anxious to see what joy it will bring into all our lives! I will have to post belly pictures as my belly continues to grow! I told my family pretty soon after I found out by showing my mom this shirt. She didn't even notice his shirt for a long time, I eventually had to Stand him on the counter and say Grandma look at my shirt! It was funny. When we told his parents his dad noticed right away but we didn't tell the rest of his family until this past weekend. They all were very excited! But this is the shirt that we announced our big news with! I love my little man and I only hope this new baby is as much of a sweet little spirit as Noah is in our lives!!

Sick baby...the flu sucks!

Well it's official, Noah has the flu for the first time! My poor little man! The past few days he has had a really bad runny nose and a bad cough but that was it. 2 nights ago he threw up but I think it was from coughing so much and being so flemmy. Anyways we had to go to the doctor yesterday for a different reason and so she looked at Noah quickly and his lungs and ears were clear and his cough was not croupe sounding and he was happy. So we just thought he had a minor viral cold on top of cutting his teeth. He just cut one molar and another tooth and is working on his molar on the other side. Anyways as of last night it turned for the worse and changed from a little cold to the full out flu! I didn't know it was the flu until this morning but last night was when it all started. I kept being woke up by him calling out but he would just go right back to bed but at around 4:00am he woke up and it was all down him from there. I almost got him back to sleep and he started throwing up. All over me and him. So at 4 in the morning we were changing his clothes and cleaning him up. After a long time I got him back to sleep but about an hour later he woke up again and so I tried to bring him into bed with me. I wasn't sure how well that would work because he hates being in bed with me. He fought me for a long time  and then all of a sudden let out this HUGE burp. Eventually he got comfortable and relaxed. He was crying and was so not happy but his eyes were closed so I knew he was tired. I sang his favorite song, "I am a child of god" for a very long time. He slept for probably another 30-45 minuets which was great for me as well! But that ended when he shot up like a bullet and started just rolling around and groaning and crying. I sat him up and instantly his little body started convulsing and throwing up everywhere. All over himself, myself and my bed! After that he just kept getting worse and before 11:30 he had thrown up 4 times and every time was all of me. (during those 4 times he would through up like 2-3 times) One time was even in my mouth and hair and right down my shirt. I had a puddle down my shirt! Let's just says its a good thing I love my boy!! Of course I thought it was disgusting because it stunk but not once did it make me angry or grossed out! I guess that's true love! I would do anything for Noah! I knew I had to get something in his little body because the last time he threw up not much came up but his little body just kept convulsing! It was so sad! I gave him a grape G2 and he loved it and then I got a little bit of chicken noodle soup and some granola bar as well in him. I am just trying to stay away from milk because every time he has it he gets so flemmy and it just makes things get worse! I decided I would try and give him some children's gravol and he stated falling asleep sitting up in his high chair! He has been sleeping for a half hour already and I hoping he has a good sleep. I figured the gravol would help his upset belly but also help him sleep! He has been so tired all morning from waking up so early and being so unsettled for hours during the night. Like he fell asleep for 20 minutes at 10:30. We had plans to go golfing with my parents today but clearly I had to stay home with Noah! He needs me and I know that! But kyle and my dad still went. My dad picked Kyle up earlier today on his way back from Elkford but that was when Noah had his short nap thismorning. My mom called me on video chat to see how we were doing and Kyle was there waiting for my dad to get ready and so he came on the screen to say him to Noah and as soon as Noah saw him he stuck out his bottom lip and stated crying! He wanted Kyle so badly! He made me cry, it was so sad how much he wanted Kyle. It reminded me of myself when there is something bugging me or I'm not feeling well and I see my mother I just instantly start crying without anything even being said or her even asking me if something is wrong. I guess that's just that innate longing for comfort from the ones you love and from the ones you know you can just break down too! I just hope he feels a bit better when he wakes up! I am also hoping tonight is a better night!! 15 months old and Noah has caught the flu!